This week's reading was done on the Hush Tarot, created by Jeremy Hush. I shuffled the cards, and asked for a reading for someone who will read this post. Read on- see if it's for you.
When a reading begins with Death, there is something major and transformative going on. Death doesn't leave you the same. If this is your reading, everything has changed. You are probably reeling from this, even if it's been some time. This time in your life will be remembered as the time that everything came to an end, and then started back up again. For now, you are starting all over again, and it's very hard. You are walking a path that has to be created as you walk it. Nothing is the same as it used to be.
The X of Swords appears next. You are actually getting towards the end of the challenge that has dominated your life. It's important to remember that things are not going to stay like they are right now. You will not feel so lost and trapped. The problems that have been holding you back are beginning to let up. You feel like you have been run through with Swords, but you are still standing. This is passing.
There are times that you feel like you backslide into the past. The IX of Swords shows you taking a step back and struggling with your thoughts around your change. You worry about it all and blame yourself for everything that has gone wrong. You try to keep this all to yourself, but that is not always easy to do. There are times that the challenges that you have been going through run into other areas of your life. You may go through times of ruminating and feeling really terrible about how things have gone.
The key to the week is your own heart. The Queen of Cups shows you as a person that is doing a lot of work to re-balance yourself. While you are hurt, your heart is intact and you are ready to let other people into your life. Take care of yourself and your emotions that are quite bruised. Ask for help from people if you need to. You may be feeling tearful at times and overwhelmed by emotion. Try to let it wash over you, take a deep breath, and be at peace.
Here's what I see. If this is your reading, you are going through a really hard time right now. Everything in your life is changing at once and you are trying to keep up with it all. The actual situation that has caused you such upset is coming to a close but you are stuck with invasive thoughts of what could have been. You are feeling stuck in your mind, and you are thinking things over far too much. It's hurting you. Instead, you may do better if you let yourself feel the emotions that you have been trying to avoid. And then- do your best to let it go. Take care of yourself and your heart. Reach out to people if you need to. You are going to feel better sooner than you think you will.
I am on vacation through the end of the month, so this will be the last weekly reading until March! Have a great few weeks, and if you would like a reading, send me a message at firstname.lastname@example.org. I will be scheduling readings starting 3/1, and will likely not respond until then!